I have been meaning to write to you guys since Calling but the craziness of living our story has been getting in the way. So pumped you guys got so much from the book. I guess in a way its nice that we were able to be a vessel for God to give back something to you guys after you have been the vessel that has brought so much to us.
Anyhow, I just wanted to give a little testimony of my experience from the Calling Intensive- though I know I talked your ear off a little bit already, Gary.
To begin with, I was really nervous about the course. Since suffering burn out last year and the pain that came as God cut into my usefulness, to the extreme, I had distanced myself completely from, I guess, my calling. I went from being someone so confident in my abilities, giftings and desires to someone who, when confronted with these things, felt panic. The thought of attending a course focused specifically on bringing clarity to these things aroused fear and a deep sense of confusion and worthlessness.
But, it was amazing!! God was so good to me and while I am still in a winter season, hibernating and resting with Him, as I talked through my passion words, themes, my rich uncle exercise etc, I came alive again. I found myself teaching the themes to my group members with so much passion and enthusiasm. I was on a total high and I felt myself again. It was so encouraging. Its all still there
I just thought this might be a useful testimony to share with someone in the future, encouraging I guess. Cause, just because God may have to take you away from your desire for a time, to mould you into the shape of it, its ok! He still loves you, you’re not a failure, and the call of God is irrevocable. I am still pretty distant from those things. Its not like after experiencing that returned desire and life that I am back on the track of acting in my giftings and core desires- my only desire at the moment is still to be left alone and to offer nothing- but I can rest in this, with the knowledge that I am still me, the things that God has placed in me and make me who I am are still there, they are just hibernating for the winter. Spring is on its way in Gods perfect timing,
So thanks guys- for your faithfulness and for fighting for a message that is bringing so much life and hope.
Love you both, Bek
Ps getting married in 22 days…insane!!! God has been working big time on us for this…(sigh) ahh, discipleship
Hey Gary and Leigh,
I have been meaning to write to you guys since Calling but the craziness of living our story
has been getting in the way. So pumped you guys got so much from the book. I guess in a way its nice that we were able to be a vessel for God to give back something to you guys after you have been the vessel that has brought so much to us.
Anyhow, I just wanted to give a little testimony of my experience from the Calling Intensive- though I know I talked your ear off a little bit already, Gary.
To begin with, I was really nervous about the course. Since suffering burn out last year and the pain that came as God cut into my usefulness, to the extreme, I had distanced myself completely from, I guess, my calling. I went from being someone so confident in my abilities, giftings and desires to someone who, when confronted with these things, felt panic. The thought of attending a course focused specifically on bringing clarity to these things aroused fear and a deep sense of confusion and worthlessness.
But, it was amazing!! God was so good to me and while I am still in a winter season, hibernating and resting with Him, as I talked through my passion words, themes, my rich uncle exercise etc, I came alive again. I found myself teaching the themes to my group members with so much passion and enthusiasm. I was on a total high and I felt myself again. It was so encouraging. Its all still there
I just thought this might be a useful testimony to share with someone in the future, encouraging I guess. Cause, just because God may have to take you away from your desire for a time, to mould you into the shape of it, its ok! He still loves you, you’re not a failure, and the call of God is irrevocable. I am still pretty distant from those things. Its not like after experiencing that returned desire and life that I am back on the track of acting in my giftings and core desires- my only desire at the moment is still to be left alone and to offer nothing- but I can rest in this, with the knowledge that I am still me, the things that God has placed in me and make me who I am are still there, they are just hibernating for the winter. Spring is on its way in Gods perfect timing,
So thanks guys- for your faithfulness and for fighting for a message that is bringing so much life and hope.
Love you both, Bek
Ps getting married in 22 days…insane!!! God has been working big time on us for this…(sigh) ahh, discipleship
whoopsie, I didnt mean to post this on the website- so not good with tecnology